28 January 2009.

haha this blog died ):
anyways new blog people. whoopee.
redirect to http://dechirant.wordpress.com/ puhleeze
thankyou

{ 6:08 PM }

09 December 2008.

/prison.

im trapped
encaged
in a cell of confusion
bound down
chained
by assumptions and unjustifiable thoughts

i see you laugh
i hear you say my name
and i smile
which arrests me further
into an interrogation of whys

i want to feel freedom beyond these bars
to find and understand the truth
but is it worth pursuing
if i know the price is you and i?

you have given me false leads
and i fell for them
so is the truth worth knowing
when all evidence seems to lead
to one that would
tear me down?

there are just some feelings in this world that words cannot describe. and coincidentially these feelings are very often felt and experienced.
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whoopee. tomorrow we are going to wildwildwet for this science thingy. whatever im sure everyone tried to make their experiments short and suhweet so they can go chill haha. anyways im stuck tallying gender of 100 people taking slides. lmaooo. like erm how useful is this data? answer: not really. oh well.

haha yesterday i went out with sis shopping like seriously the whole day. and im officially broke :/ bought a pair of converse; victoria secret body spray (romantic wish); adidas bag; top; shorts; earrings; nail polish; and my sis decided to pay for my bikini hahahaha whoopee.

today zomgs. got some exams back. and whee i failed higher maths :D shoots i did so bad. i needa needa needa practice more maths ew. gah. anyways. haha in pe today it was football and we had to do headers. lmao. i think i had a concussion after the ball bouncing off my head so many times. and ew it was so muddy. almost slipped :/ yes all you sad people i almost, dont worry (im sure you did) i didnt hahaha.

kay. im bored. hope you liked reading yet another of my rantings(:

♥

{ 9:00 PM }

07 December 2008.

wow today was out like the whole day and rather amusing. lmao i actully rode on the singapore flyer hahahaha with family grandparents and cousins. the first half was alright and i just kept taking photos. but after the thingy past the optimum height, it got really boring lol. and i was chatting to deb on msn just now, and she said just imagine how sad it would be if someone got like a stomachache just when they started the ride. lmao. sadistic child. the thingy lasted around half an hour. hm i guess it was a good experience. but im only gonna ride that thingy once in my lifetime thank you. and haha it was kinda scary looking down from the top x)

and whee tomorrow is a holiday. woots. im going shopping with my sis lol. christmas shopping? maybe. cause you dont really need a reason to shop yes? (: today was an alright day. mostly visiting grandparents and cousins. morning church cell was hilarious cause we were playing this game which required to draw a phrase so people could guess. and i had to draw a phrase with 'son' in it. lmao. you do not know what i drew haha. i was under time pressure okay! p.s. hint for all you eager beavers: how do you draw a stickman kid and show that its a guy? ;D

haha so yes; a rather amusing day overall :D cant wait to shop lmao. but seriously singapore's so sad. most shops open at like 11-12?! wow so late dude. like its nearly half a day gone? pft. dont they wanna earn money?! okay this is annoying me lol. haha omgs. two of my younger cousins were so cute they were like playing this bakugan toy thing and watching series of it on youtube lmao. which got my sister hooked on it too T.T like idk its the rage right now with kiddos haha. well at least now i know what to get them for christmas :D

this is again one of my word vomit posts. yay. i cant believe im actually keeping this blog thing to date. haha. all my other blogs eternities ago were abandoned after the third post :D whoopee go me. do i sound happy? lmao. oh i wanna watch wildchild haha. and and the other day enrica jenna and i went to watch Hell's Highway hehe my first NC16 movie whoots. it was scary. and if you wanna read more go to their blogs. lol. all i can say was that i was scared. ricay was scarder. and jenna played it cool. hahaha. oh and ricay kept jumping in her seat. and kept whispering 'shanna eep helpp' and jenna going 'shut up enrica'. lmao it was so funny.

i love you all(: and goodnight. although im not that sleepy haha. toodles.

♥

{ 11:08 PM }

06 December 2008.

/BOB.

bob.
bob.
bobbitty
bobbity
bob
bobbity bob
bobbitty bob
bob bob bob

everyone should say it when they're thinking of Bob. or their own Bobs.

lol this poem was by graceee(: (its on her blog peeps) haha and it made me laugh. oh and i was drinking water. and everyone knows you shouldnt be drinking water while laughing hahahahah. ilytoo grace and we should all be thinking of our own bobs

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{ 9:56 PM }

/breathe.

you must press on
stay strong
tears have been shed
but its all in your head
think hard and you'll find
that these chains can unbind
don't breathe that last breath yet

and no one said
easy
but someone's here
who cares and loves you dear
think hard and you'll see
what unravelled knots be
don't breathe that last breath yet

you may have failed
gave up
wished on that star
that the end isn't far
think hard and you'll know
your life's yet to unfold
so don't breathe your last breath now

sometimes. don't you just wish everything should would and could end? and you have felt that your last breath should have been breathed long ago? but i guess that should only happen when it really is your time to go. so if you're reading this haha it does mean that you're still stuck here on earth and every breath you make now is /believe it or not - precious. and hey no one promised an easy life. so deal with it. cry if you feel like it; admit it you're not made out of sugar so tears wouldn't exactly kill you. and once its all let out. take a deep breath. move on. there's you life right there in front of you. ready for you to unfold.

♥

{ 12:38 PM }

05 December 2008.

something like really sucky happened :/
je m'inquiète trop
scared/worried/tired/anxious/sad trust me. these feelings suck.
ahh my mind is loaded with "what ifs" and worse case scenarios.
the day has officially gotten worse.
like today was sports day or whatever and we were supposed to play freaking basketball for the whole day? they're mad. it wasnt too bad at lunch though. like played some badminton with jenna and zeena got really hyped up about disney movies lol.
ugh. i hate it when stuff like this happen. one moment something good happens, cheers you up; the next you're in a pile of shitty feelings.
sadly i think only one thing can really probably make me feel better now.
if you only knew.
actually on second thought. better if you dont know. stay ignorant.
i wish there was a person who knew all my secrets, thoughts and feelings (and never tell a soul) and like advise me what to do. and the advise would always make things right. hmph. they should maybe invent some robot to do that.

♥

{ 6:34 PM }

04 December 2008.

/ecstacy.

your smile is my ecstacy
i cannot deceive myself any longer
it keeps my heart beating

when you say my name
it is the rainbow sparkles
on my cupcake day

and when you laugh
it is as contagious
as a cow in a cow farm
with mad cow disease

when you say 'see you'
i do hope that i would
see you bring me
my ecstacy again.

{ 10:26 PM }